Dairy_EY/PwC/DTT/KPMG5

A is so lame. I didn't expected that he is such kind of person, or I shouldn't be too astonished based on what he did I the past. I don't think that is good but on the other hand who is good? People are selfish indeed.

Last time when I saw his posts I judged him at first but in turn I blamed myself for those thoughts. Now it appears to be that thoughts are true and fair. I don't know what they said and how much genuality in those things but from a third party's point of view, THERE IS TOO MUCH MATERIALITY. Does he ever care about how other people would look at him? He must knew how people would look at him. Let's see who will be invited.

However, I still cannot understand that he is not stupid to such an extend that he can not tell what he really wants. That's curious. Why he would exert such amount of effort to do this? Un-understandable, at all.

But

Is it wrong for people to make themselves being better? At some cost? Do we need to care about how others judge us during this process?

Dairy_EY/PwC/DTT/KPMG4

Now training is over. As expected, A didn't get fist 3. What a shame. Why A is so weak. A has passed all CPA but why he cannot make it. He does not seem to have a good grasp of knowledge, any knowledge since he started to go to school. Can he become B as he always said? I don't know. He doesn't seem to have the power of C nor the D and those are all fiction, aren't they. I'm quite worried about him. 

Things learned from this training:

Enough medicines are required, cold, fever etc. It is a nightmare if medicine is not adequate.

Slippery are required. The paper made slippery provided by hotel is quite uncomfortable especially after shower.

Towel is required. Now I start to doubt the sanitation of the towel provided by hotel. It even has the vestige of blood. Quite afraid of contagious diseases.

I'm coming home. Hope to have fun in the days before that happens.

Thoughts_happy marriage

What keeps marriage happy and within the line?

People marry and divorce. Christians say love is a commitment. But if the commitment is not happy, should people still keep it?

Hypocrisy. Like Sheldon's mom. “I'm not perfect.” Who buys it.

diary_

No one knows how eager he wants to find someone to talk to. It has been a few months since his dream started, but he seems did not enjoy his dream so much. His customers, his friends seem so alien to him that he could not help to have such feelings.

“Introverted people will be discarded by this world” he thinks. No matter how his family, friends or whatever someone encourage him, he just cannot change. Is that because there is not something big, something powerful enough happens to him? If this is the case, I suppose he must not hope that happen. What a poor guy. Who would love such a person? Does he deserve to be loved? But I know he needs love.

It seems unfair to blame his ex to dump him. As said before, who would love such person, a person without hope, without eager to change, without a sense for safety to anyone who around him. He must be regretful to let her go.

Few people would love their jobs. He thought he might be an exception. But after starting to work, he felt he is the same. The job, at least at current stage, is completely not what he thought it would be, but fortunately this is not his last choice, and being forced to work is not everyone’s last choice. There must be an easier way of making a living.

Actually he has done a reasonable good job, at least in someone’s eyes, even though those people’s opinion may not be that important in terms of benefiting his career, even though those people’s opinion may not be genuine, even though what he expects is not those people but only her, even though she is yet to come into his life. What a pity if someone’s ability cannot support his dreams. Would that become a tragedy if he even does not want to change? Seeing him like this may even become a torture for people who watch him, who come into his live and who love him.

What on earth he could do? What he is doing is not value adding to his future. What he is expected could be done at any time anywhere. This is a waste of time.

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Thoughts_Naruto

There was a lot want to say recently, but now there is not a clue.

About Naruto

Everyone is living in his/her own belief, and deems that is right, said by Itachi. I deeply agree with this. This is the root of many problems. Everyone is using his/her own criteria to judge others subconsciously, trying to let others to accept his/her own way of thinking or doing. But who gives our authority to do so? Where does it come from? If there is none, the angry spurred by the departure shows what?

The criteria used also changes, especially when applied to our own cases. We judge others on but forgive ourselves for the same behaviour, without even noticing this. By the way, is it only able to judge others when we are the ultra-right? Can a selfish A criticise B for being selfish? I think he/she can, but this is less powerful. In this case, the fact that B is selfish is not changed, but we tend to condemn A and neglect B’s selfish. Is this good?

Dairy_EY/PwC/DTT/KPMG3

The training is held in an university in central SDQ. Firm arranged our accommodation at a reasonably decent business hotel, with about one stop away from the university.

At first day, one partner gave a speech about the firm and this training. She only spent 12 years to become a partner. The content of this training is about fundamental and intermediate financial accounting with a few coverage of financial analysis. A says this is also helpful to him as well, since these content is not covered in CPA exam and he only has a vague memory about these as time passes.

Lecturers are the same lecturers that the university uses to teach its own students, so the teaching quality is roughly the same. Having said that now A does believe what A told us that you are not inferior to graduates from famous university in terms of technique skills, because to his way of thinking, A is better than them. But of course they might not put that much effort to this training. A is quite a good lecturer, but in my eyes based on his technical skills he did not get what he deserves to have, either in terms of interest or fame. This is the life isn't it. The academic world is fraught with "demonstration accounting", and no one seems care about pure theoretical deductions, but it is the latter that is the essence of accounting, in my eyes.

The air quality in SDQ is unexpectedly good. The sky is blue with only a few rainy days. What a miracle. But the environment between the hotel and university is quite disappointing because it is just like a 3rd-tire city--dirty, noisy and dirty. I would not pay that high price to buy an unit in that region of Beijing even if I had that amount of money. By the way, the cost of raising a child in SDQ also frightens me. You need to pay lots of money in order to send your child to a decent junior/senior high school.

I'm leaving soon within one week. I don't know what is waiting for me in the future. Excited? Frightened? I have no idea.

Dairy_EY/PwC/DTT/KPMG2

A feel that A is too weak. A has a reasonably good family and actually A did not suffer anything let alone the suffering as other people had. A really have no idea what A would do in that situation. But A have not achieved that much as they have. They have higher IQ and EQ. They went to prestigious universities and can grasp knowledge more quickly. They know how to behave properly and what to say/not to say. But A don't.

They say they don't like social and A say the same as well, but now A knows that the essense are different, totally. They maybe dislike that, but they have the ability to do that, and they can do it reasonably well. But look at him. A cannot do it at all. A hopes to be Hokage, but A neigher has kilyubi nor do he has silyaringan. I don't know what is waiting for me.

It seems that not all people likes A. A is frightened hurt and sad. A don't know what A did wrong. A wishes to be friend with everyone. It's odd that seldom did A dislike others. A could easily accept them as they are. But why A keeps feeling that someone does not like me. A knows that one cannot let all people likes you, but this still buffles him. A don't want to hurt anyone, but maybe A is hurting someone in a way that he did not notice, just as they hurt him.

A sent the message. Why is this so hard? A did feel a sense of happiness when A saw the reply, a happniess of relief. A don't know why a lot of things become the way they are now. But they are what they are now. A wishes A could live in an illusory world, just like Uchiha said, no misery, at least.

Dairy_EY/PwC/DTT/KPMG

This is the end of 2nd of our training in AA. A lot have happened. Overall, A finds this trip worthwell.

Although this is a trainning for non-accounting background students, A still picked up something that A did not notice or comprehend in the past. For example, the planning cost/actrual cost of inventory, the distribution of profit and the concept of bank notes

A is called ABC in that I passed all papers of CPA exam, but actually A don't think A is that good, so A is always humble, saying "It's just an exam may not equal to real ability", "You will have the same day as long as you put your time onto this.", "I'm not cleaver since I did not do as well as you did in the colleage entrance exam. I just spent enough time so that I passed. Guys as smart as you must be able to pass this even without being so industrious as I did." etc,. S told A that A should not be so humble, even being humble is good because this may mean that people as stupid as A could pass but they did not pass, so they are much stupid than you. A swear A did not mean this.

Thoughts1

I've no idea what is going on and what it should be.

One should, according to the bible, be loyal to his/her partner. Even if there is no feeling between each other, his/her partner drives him/her crazy? Forcing together by form, as bible required, could really make them happy?

One brings benefits to her relatives